tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-69982092011-04-22T09:31:10.641+08:00simple boyish girl..likes to laugh alot..loves hanging out with close friendz..but always try to run away & hide when times are bad.. cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.comBlogger191100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1102778106984846642004-12-11T23:59:00.000+08:002004-12-11T23:15:06.983+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">three months time and i'm back again to blog..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">things have changed..many things</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">not really used to long term break..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">miss all my friendz..haiz..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">just checked out a friend's blog</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">kinda sad after readin it</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">wonder if that person was taking bout me</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">am i really that not understanding? </span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">so much to say</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">but guess i dont have the chance anymore...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">whatever is the case</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">"sorry" will always be the word i want to say</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">haiz...night falls again</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">time to dream</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:78%;">note: if any friend is to see me by chance, please try to say "hi" to me...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:78%;"> couz i'm not invisible..thanx</span> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-110277810698484664?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com3tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1094136678145018002004-09-02T22:40:00.000+08:002004-09-02T22:51:18.146+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">"forever"...quite a nice term..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">but..i realised that nOthing lasts 4ever..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">dont even know who came up with this word...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">i find it rather lame..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">in fairy tales..there's another word more meaningful</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">come from the sentence "they lived happily ever after"</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">happily? happiness? </span><span style="font-size:85%;">what does it means?</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">laughing wholeheartedly? leading a carefree life? or being with the one you love? </span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">one day...i will find its meaning...eventually...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">step by step..by myself...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"> <br />btw..try downloading a new song by fish leong- zhong jian <br />a new taiwan idol show de theme song..lyrics are beautiful...</span> <br /></span><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-109413667814501800?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1094135355433074322004-09-02T22:30:00.000+08:002004-09-02T22:29:15.433+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">"forever"..such a nice term..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">but...i realised nOthing lasts 4ever...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">dont even know who came up with this word...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">couz i find it lame...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">fairt tales seem to be so wonderful too.</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">always ending up with "they live happily ever after.."</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">ya..what's "happiness" after all?</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">laughing wholeheartedly? being with the one you love? doing things that you like?</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">or leading a carefree life?</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">for once..i thought i was born in a happy family...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">showed with love..care and all sorts...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">and that was like..in primary school?</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">couz i was too young to know about family probs & stress then...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">but..i wasnt at all pitiful...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">couz..i know i am much more fortunate than some others out in this world..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">sometimes...people just hurts others without knowing it...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">like me..i did it quite a few times before...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">Argh..i dont know what on my mind now...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">stupid me..keep thinking bout nonsense...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">lolz...laugh..and i really like laughing...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">that's the usual ME! =D</span> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-109413535543307432?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1093948402885476242004-08-31T18:30:00.000+08:002004-08-31T18:33:22.886+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">erm..tml..i bad bad..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">going to put Gab on aeroplane again...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">haiz..these few days no time to come online...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">bored...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">just now went back to primary school...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">visited my ex chinese teacher...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">she's still the same...and said i changed a lot...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">"got meh?" eng xuan & kaili asked me...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">ya..i thought i didnt changed at all...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">still as childish...lolz</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">erm...life still suz...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">but..i'm in quite a high mood today...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">so..just be with it...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">i'm tired of family problems too..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">and now..trying to get some breathe...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">~~~ some fresh air ~~~</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">things changed quite alot for me...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">erm..actually..i dont really scare of being alone le..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">ahahha..grow up le wor =Pp</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">lolz</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">...wish that life would be much more peaceful</span> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-109394840288547624?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1091016620169311622004-07-28T19:44:00.000+08:002004-07-28T20:10:20.170+08:00<span style="font-size:85%;">lost count to all the times of "sorry" i've said...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">but...i'm really sorry for&nbsp;not being myself today...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">maybe...wont be it for the next few days too....</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">so..if you try talking to me & i didnt quite respond to you...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">really sorry k? i might be sinking deep into my own world le.</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span>&nbsp; <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">guess...i really need to be alone.</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">for these few days.</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span>&nbsp; <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">you're right..i need not be a follower..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">but..for these 4years, i'm quite used to it le.</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span>&nbsp; <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">sometimes..i'm sick of myself for being who i am too...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">sorry</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">always following others around..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">always not having my own ideas...</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">always hurting the ones who care for me..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">always being such an asshole..</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span>&nbsp; <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">hahaz...sorry</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">couldnt find the right word to describe such&nbsp;a person like me.</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;">vocab words are limited.</span> <br /><span style="font-size:85%;"></span>&nbsp; <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-109101662016931162?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1090927197722612012004-07-27T19:00:00.000+08:002004-07-27T19:19:57.723+08:00haha...great day i'm having in school today.. <br />least i did managed to skip the extra lesson... <br /><span ></span>&nbsp; <br />first of all..i didnt fight with Jaz... <br />i just massaged her for once... <br />for she is absent..i'm soo to make her sick of seeing me <br />so sorry...having a sicking face is not what i wanted too... <br />i'm born this way...bad genes i think... <br />so sorry...to have such a Bastard bumping into you galz life... <br />sorry... <br /> <br />i know sorry is of no help le...like you've said <br />so...just forget abt having this person- ME living in this world... <br />ya...i broke all of your de hearts..hurt you once.twice and times after times <br />ya...i'm a Bastard as currently the post of Bitch is being taken <br /> <br />dun i want to take u as my best friend? <br />hahah... <br />there's no so called "second clz" mind u <br />nono...there is...since you said that.. <br />ya...everything is possible... <br /> <br />OOoo...ya... <br />sorry...its just all JUNK i'm&nbsp;typing right here.. <br />I"M A JUNK TOO! right? <br />and ya...SO SORRY... <br />for having you all bring my cuo qi tong all these while... <br />making you all so pissed off at all times... <br /> <br />never mind... <br />i'm a hurtful junk.. <br />ahha...can go find my other junk friendz le... <br />e.g.leonghan...aahaha.... <br /> <br />lalala... <br />great life i'm having now... <br />i'm having a great family... <br />great time of 16 years! <br /> <br />nothing is&nbsp;ever greater than NOW! <br /> <br />&nbsp; <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-109092719772261201?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1088258400031091802004-06-26T21:51:00.000+08:002004-06-26T22:00:00.030+08:00hmmm... <br />decision made... <br />no turning back le... <br /> <br />who knows what might happen tomorrow... <br />enjoy life at this moment... <br /> <br />school reopening in 2days time.. <br />left with 5months... <br />concentration is what i really needs now... <br /> <br />btw...songs by Fairyland in Reality (F.I.R) <br />is kinda touching... <br />esp the song..wo men de ai... <br />the lyric is so meaningful...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108825840003109180?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1087815344841154812004-06-21T18:50:00.000+08:002004-06-21T18:55:44.840+08:00final decision is made... <br />no BARGAINING... <br /> <br />hmmm..just like what others said... <br />it's better to end earlier... <br /> <br />KimHock said i've grow up le... <br />happy to see me mysfle making a decision.. <br />hehee =D <br /> <br />yup... <br />i'm 16... <br />ahhaha<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108781534484115481?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1087214467634978282004-06-14T19:45:00.000+08:002004-06-14T20:01:07.633+08:00haiz..kinda feel that life sux again.. <br />family into finacial problem... <br />haiving the feelings that "friendship" is just another meaningless term... <br />i mean..i dont seems to understand them anymore... <br />they just dont seems to share le... <br />and relationship... <br />guess it's worse ba.... <br />some otherS just keep giving commentS.. <br /> <br />i mean...WHO are THEY to have the right to do that? <br /> <br />two different worlds... <br />two people... <br /> <br />MAN...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108721446763497828?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1086263168378041502004-06-03T19:41:00.000+08:002004-06-03T19:46:08.376+08:00once again... <br />i sense no direction in my world.. <br />i feel so lost right at this moment.. <br /> <br />the reason i choose to run away, <br />to quit thinking, <br />to act happy... <br />is beacuse i dont want anyone to know that i am hurt.. <br /> <br />it's always easy to say "let go" <br />and indeed, it seems to be like so too... <br />just by saying some words all things will change <br />until that're so different <br /> <br />i've made my choice <br />but now... <br />i feel like putting everything down... <br /> <br />everything...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108626316837804150?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1085999083187606092004-05-31T18:15:00.000+08:002004-05-31T18:24:43.186+08:00"the day after tomorrow" <br />not a bad show..i like the storyline & the graphics.. <br />beautiful lei..the snow and seawaves... <br /> <br />so..completed one of my O level paper today.. <br />not bad..seems quite easy.. <br />but..donno lar.. <br />if later didnt score well.. <br />i sure bang my head on the wall de... <br />*kill myself* <br /> <br />bored day..now going out again.. <br />to celebrate my 2nd bro de b!rtHd@y.. <br /> <br />tired... <br />sleepy... <br />blur... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108599908318760609?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1085917474473799132004-05-30T19:39:00.000+08:002004-05-30T19:44:34.473+08:00how long can two people from two different world stay together? <br /> <br />how different are they....? <br /> <br />how different are thet world they stay in? <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108591747447379913?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1085833484536536502004-05-29T20:17:00.000+08:002004-05-29T20:24:44.536+08:00hmmm..i'm 16 today! <br />finally can guang ming zhen da go into pool centre.. <br /> <br />was quite high de.. <br />went pizza hut with Jaz, Jas, Hock & Kahmeng.. <br />crap & ate lots of food =Pp <br /> <br />tired le..going sleep.. <br />hehee...<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108583348453653650?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1085481435313198992004-05-25T18:23:00.000+08:002004-05-25T18:37:15.313+08:00haiz.. <br />everything seems so.. <br />difficult.. <br />so difficult to maintain all things in a better way.. <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108548143531319899?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1085291977613598992004-05-23T13:48:00.000+08:002004-05-23T13:59:37.613+08:00really..i'm lost too.. <br />i hate making decisions.. <br />i put everyting down le..really.. <br />but..feng? <br />it's barely a month yet... <br />muz i really make a decision now? <br /> <br />i hate u guys.. <br />always say its for my own good.. <br />ya.."my own good" <br /> <br />do u guys understand my very OWN feelings? <br />i'm also a human being.. <br />born with F E E L I N G S <br /> <br />sorry... <br />just..donno what i'm suppose to do now.. <br />i like him... <br />maybe..i should let go le? <br />haiz... <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108529197761359899?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1084881125966197282004-05-18T19:45:00.000+08:002004-05-18T19:52:05.966+08:00spent time with feng in the afternoon enjoying the wind.. <br />not bad of an idea.. <br /> <br />parents just got back home.. <br />fighting again.. <br />sian diao.. <br />i dont even know what happened in the first place.. <br /> <br />fine.. <br />let them continue fighting.. <br />long as dont get me involve.. <br />haiz... <br /> <br />tml is another new day... <br />hope things will get better..somehow.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108488112596619728?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1084790554492558972004-05-17T18:30:00.000+08:002004-05-17T18:42:34.493+08:00so..guess every steps that i had taken.. <br />is terribly wrong huh? <br /> <br />okay..couz i dont even know what's going on with myself le.. <br /> <br />how am i suppose to react with things that are happening? <br />stay away from it....? haiz.. <br /> <br />does fairness exist in this world? <br />guess not.. <br />nothing is ever fair in this world.. <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108479055449255897?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-1084627270801941702004-05-16T12:20:00.000+08:002004-05-15T21:21:10.800+08:00okay..i'm feeling so sux right now... <br />really..feeling i'm such a bitch.. <br />ya..nothing but a bitch.. <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-108462727080194170?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-6998209.post-108463189811703672004-05-15T22:28:00.000+08:002004-05-15T22:38:18.116+08:00can i choose to lost my memory somehow? <br />seriously..i need to do so... <br /> <br />can i forget abt everyone & everything? <br />and lead another new life without remembering them? <br /> <br />~a car accident will suits me just fine~ <br /> <br />everyone have their very own side of feelings which they try to hide.. <br />they buried these memories deep inside their heart.. <br /> <br />i once do so..but it seems that.. <br />it still hurts very much... <br />no matter how deep i buried them.. <br /> <br />everyone thinks that i'm happy go lucky.. <br />right..i'm...and i'll continue to be like this... <br /> <br /><div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/6998209-10846318981170367?l=day_nightdreamz.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>cheeninghttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13306012669098971942noreply@blogger.com0